To anyone who enjoys reading here I apologize I haven't written anything in a really long time. I've been trying to restructure my learning schedule and also had an opportunity to switch jobs for the first time in half a decade so while I've been investing a lot in updating my professional life and (I hope) my spiritual life, I haven't been investing any time or energy in my writing.
One of the goals I have with this blog is to focus my posts on threshing out ideas based either on Torah or at least logical reasoning. I don't like to spend too much time on "feelings" that aren't backed up by some sort of evidence/logic as everyone has their own feelings and whose to say mine are any more relevant than yours that you should be spending time contemplating mine instead of your own?
I especially never intended to speak about my dreams as Chazal says that there is no dream without at least some element of nonsense, and mine in particular never seem to have any significant meaning worth speaking about. However, I have had several dreams over the last several months which I view as significant in that while I'm not some mekubal that can interpret them or even confirm they do have some sort of message, they had quite a significant emotional affect on me both during the dream and after I woke up (including a really striking one the night before the Har Nof shul massacre).
I'd like to share my most recent one as it greatly ties into how I've been feeling lately. I was living in some sort of real-life post apocalyptic tv shows or movies. I'm not sure if the reason had been war or zombies or who knows what, but civilization had collapsed and I was in a group of survivors scavenging for food and supplies. I started telling one of my comrades that G-d was bringing the world to an end and he said something to the effect of, "He already did, look around you." I replied that I didn't mean civilization collapsing, but something even more than that. That even for the survivors - Hashem was bringing their world to an end and that human history was about to come to it's complete end even for those of us still around. As I was telling him this I started crying my eyes out and I said something to the effect of, "It's all going to be finished." Just as I completed that sentence I woke up from the dream!
I don't currently have the head-space to comment on the amazing rate of deterioration (or should I say revelation of the true nature) of Israel's relationship with America, nor the expansion of conflicts in the middle east. I'll leave that to bloggers like Rabbi Brody and Devash. And although Nissan/Pesach as well as shmita is an auspicious time for Am Yisrael, and I'm sure many geula bloggers will make connections to this, I also won't get into that right now. I guess I just need to take a step back for a moment, look at the bigger picture and get off my chest that while I and a lot of people I know have spoken over the last decade or so about how history seems to be speeding up, I feel like in the last year and the last few months even that heightened rate of acceleration is drastically picking up the pace.
Like I said I'm not going to use this post to try and make any ramazim through current events or the like. I just want to say that regardless of any particular instances, I just have this general feeling in my gut of "Whoah, what is going on here?" and I guess I'm just curious if anyone else is feeling that as well? If so please feel free to share.
Shabbat Hagadol Shalom and Chag Kasher v'sameach. May we only hear good things for Am and Eretz Yisrael.